I suppose I should explain why I'm all up on ya here on this evening.
Ya see, the guy who I have liked/denied myself to like now has a Tumblr (ya know, the other site I left you for) & I cannot post my frustrations on Tumblr for he will see it & I will feel like a complete & utter jackass.
Where do I begin w/ you.. I don't even know how we started hanging out. It all seems so random to me. But I remember I had feelings for you early on in our friendship. I eventually told you of these feelings, but they were pretty shot down, although you did ask me some questions like "If we were to be together ..." Things of that nature. Kinda made me unsure of what you really thought.
Where do I begin w/ you.. I don't even know how we started hanging out. It all seems so random to me. But I remember I had feelings for you early on in our friendship. I eventually told you of these feelings, but they were pretty shot down, although you did ask me some questions like "If we were to be together ..." Things of that nature. Kinda made me unsure of what you really thought.
Blah.
We still hung out a lot, even after I told you this, & we got superrrrr duper close. I loved it.
Then around spring break time or so, we reallllly stopped talking. I don't even know why. We probably didn't hang out for an entire month. But, we recently did start hanging out again. & ya know what? My feelings are still there. I thought they would be gone by now. But nope, I still get this feeling from you & it won't go away.
I've done things for you I'd never do for any other guy. I drive you around, even when I'm paranoid about my lack of gas. I brought you homemade chicken soup when you were sick 'cus I wanted you to feel better. I buy you food or I share my food with you. I enjoy your company all around.
Last night, we went to Pride Prom. After Pride Prom, we came to my house & got drunk. I wanted to kiss you so badly. Even with the liquid courage in my system, I couldn't muster up the strength. I felt so stupid. The next morning (today), I dropped you off at home. Later on when I was at home, I found your notebook that you had forgotten. I thought it'd be cute to write you a note in there, so I did. I don't know what I was thinking. Ugh. I dropped it off to you. You texted me saying "thanks" but idk if that's in reference to me bringing the notebook over to you, of if you read my note. If it's the latter, I'm disappointed that's all the response I'd get from you.
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Last night, we went to Pride Prom. After Pride Prom, we came to my house & got drunk. I wanted to kiss you so badly. Even with the liquid courage in my system, I couldn't muster up the strength. I felt so stupid. The next morning (today), I dropped you off at home. Later on when I was at home, I found your notebook that you had forgotten. I thought it'd be cute to write you a note in there, so I did. I don't know what I was thinking. Ugh. I dropped it off to you. You texted me saying "thanks" but idk if that's in reference to me bringing the notebook over to you, of if you read my note. If it's the latter, I'm disappointed that's all the response I'd get from you.
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There's more I could write, but my mind is in shambles.
