I'm sitting here listening to "Trouble" by Britney Spears & I can't help but feel a little depressed.
I'm pretty damn sick of my life revolving around school. It's disgusting. all i do is go learn shit for 10 hours and then go home and homework. hetero.
I can't help but feel that my highschool experiences aren't up too par.
I don't realy do bad things. ever.
Is it said that i just want things to get fucked up a little bit; just to go fuckin' crazy and not give a shit about anything but partying? I think it is. I don't care.
I really hate that i hold this ... life standard on which i feel guilty for doing anything close to "naughty". even in the slightest.

take one puff off that cigarette? can't.
take a hit off that joint? can't.
go get drunk? can't.

i'm pretty damn sick of these moral obligatons i feel compelled to follow.
i suppose i can fuck shit up a little bit in college? i guess.
i don't really even want to go to college. i'd much rather just be a celebrity and go show up at parties and get paid like i'm paris hilton or something. but not as gross. LOLLLL.



is it just me, or does blogging bring out the heavy & deep depressed side out of people? HAHAH.
oh well! hetero.

deuces.