"I don't .. I'm sorry."

& here i thought we were friends.
guess not.

you're boyfriend is more important than i am apparently, even though we both know he has complete & utter control over you. we've talked about this.
i guess i wasn't good enough to stand up for.

but you don't have a backbone. so i can't really blame you.
it's exactly the reason why we can't be friends; because since you have no backbone, your boyfriend manipulates you into doing as he says. as always.

just like he dictated for you not to hang out with your best friends, just like how he can get you to give your phone to him, just like how he makes sure to win all the arguements, just like how i'm pretty sure he's making you not be friends with me.

cus you know, i'm such a shitty friend.

if you really don't want to be friends with me, i wish you would have the courage to tell me what's wrong so i could fix it. because i like being friends with you.

but no, you're letting your boyfriend manipulate you into this. & you're letting it happen. at least that's what i think is going on.

i know you. you're not the type of person to just decide you don't want to be friends with someone anymore. it's just not you.

so, that's what makes me believe there is a guard monitoring your prison, a puppet master pulling your strings.

i hope it doesn't have to end like this. i really hope you have the strength to break the strings attached to your back & let yourself be free from that master of yours.
i like you, and i don't want things to end this way.
but if they must, then they must.
i hope you realize that you're losing a friend that cared about you. & you know i care about you, no matter how sarcastic & bitchy i am. you know i do.

if you somehow end up reading this, i'm not trying to offend you.
i'm really not. this is just who you are.
but i'm hoping that what i'm saying will change you & make you learn how to stand up for yourself.

may you find happiness with your boyfriend. if not, i hope it's because you realized that he has taken away your connection to the two closest friends in your life; me & your other best friend.

i know there's more to this story, & there's a chance I'll add onto this blog as it comes to me.
but for now, this is all i needed to get off my chest.

have a great life with your boyfriend.





even though you could have a better one with your two best friends.